And so I face my final frontier

Hey guys,

    Today I went back to school (I know right we went back late!) but sometimes when I go back to school after a while there's some happiness inside of me that can't help but but feel trampled by friendship.

I talked in a previous post about my friends and today I've decided to talk in detail. 

So at the beginning my group was fully formed with six people and the odd seven because the girl is in our form joined us and is really nice. But after a while we could not stop arguing and would create direct messages on Instagram saying FORGIVE AND FORGET but as we all know that saying is terrible because you can never forgive them and you never forget what they did. So after four months of arguing my friends and I (let's call one thg and the other mp) want to call it quites and end the friendship because we are already drifting apart and we did not sign up for arguing all through the year that Is suppose to be good. But I can't help feel that mp is stealing thg away from or thg prefers mp and wants to leave me because whenever it's just me and thg all she ever talks about is mp and I'm kind of sick of it and I just feel if the group splits eventually Im  going to be left alone with no one.

Because of that, parts of me want to leave my school but because of my birthday certain schools will make me move down a year and it's just difficult because I would enjoy joining a new secondary school and find people I can relate too but now I feel as if I'm the friend who you make fun of and expect me to find it funny  when actually really, it hurts.

Just a couple hours ago we finally called it quits and our friendship with the other three is other. Part of me is happy but the other hates it and sometimes I wonder whether I made the right friend because thg is nice and all but sometimes I feel like I'm the person she can blame stuff on and if I stand up to her I feel as if the world hates me. 

Don't you wish you could disappear into another world and start fresh re meeting the same people and get on with the better? I do, leave a comment down below if you do please.

Sorry this is a late post but I had homework. Even in the first day back at my school you still get tons of homework! 

Till next post ma friends 

Online Girl xx