Wednesday, 31 December 2014
New Years Eve and New Goals
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE GUYS!!!!!!!!
Now like title says I have goals because resolutions to me make it sound like a chore and you're only doing it because you have to. Goals make it sound more positive and fun and I'm setting some and maybe giving you ieas on what ours could be today.
1) Go on the internet less- I think the internet and social media create most of our lives and in a way steal some the big broad world we're actaully missing full of beauty and mysterous wonders. I read in an article that the author of the article's daughter decided to stay away from her phone and anything to with social media and just have a basic phone phone that woulf only take texts and calls. After this experiment the girl found that actaully she was more happy whilst she had the basic phone because she didnt have the stress of checking the media evrey single minute and actaully enjoyed life more. I just want to do that and know that thw world i live in can be a great place if we switch off our phones and internet and go outside. I rmemeer telling my best friend saying that we should do it together and she just laughed and called me an idiot for thinking of such an idiotic idea OUCH now that hurt me. I bet you guys reading probably think i'm crazy for thinking about this but i don't think it's as bad as it sounds like.
2) Be more happy- now since i got help about my anxiety and mild depression I am going to try my hardest and overcome it with the exercises ive been given and to stop acting happy and meaning it because whats the point in hiding behind a mask in the real world where you stop being who you used to be and let other people write th script of YOUR life.
3)Be me- Now this is probably cheesy but i've been starting to act like someone i'm not because my friends found me odd so i started acting how they wanted me to act and i just think if you have to act like someone else to get your friends to like you then they are not your friends So next year i'm going to act like myself and if my friends dont like it then they can leave me keep me i dont care because i need to be more who I AM and less like that girl everyone else wants to be. Especially simce my appearence is not a pretty sight (it really isn't).
I'm only doing three because so far those are the only ones that i think are majr at the minute and also the ones i think about most. I do hope you guys have a good new year and i will either post on new years day or the day after since thats a friday but if not i will just post whenever and I think that is all from me right now so till next post ma friends!
Online Girl xxx
Tuesday, 30 December 2014
What does 2014 scream?
WELL... WELCOME TO 2015
Even if it is the 2nd I do not care because its a friday woohoo!.
Well yet another year gone by and yet I still feel like its 2006. I have to say 2014 hasn't been a great for me in fact I think I jinxed it for myself. I remember on Facebook saying
HAPPY NEW YEAR BET THIS ONE IS GOING TO BE A GREAT ONE!
Now I'm not one to believe in voodoo or good and bad luck but when it comes around I become a little sketchy about the whole thing.
Now I don't want to create a sob story here but seeming as this is what I'm writing about I guess I have to don't I.
I think the first part of bad luck happened in May (May 15th to be exact) when *try no to cry Online Girl* My dog Parker suddenly got blood poisoning and soon put to sleep. When that happened to me I wanted to scram and shout and kill the world. It killed me because well he was my best friend, the one I could talk to when I was down and hated the world because I don't think he could judge me but to me it felt like he understood me and was always there for me. God I miss him so much.
The second bad thing that happened to me was school and my friends. Ever since we all found each other and learnt that we all had the same interests we became a really close friendship group but now I feel that as a distance memory because all we do now is constantly argue I think we just got over our sixth argument and half the time I don't even know why we're even arguing its stupid. Do any of you guys have these in your friendship groups? I'd love to know in the comments below. Sometimes I say to myself Online Girl if it gets to the tenth argument and its still this bad then leave them. I always feel serious about it because even if it means losing my best friend in the world (Whom I'm starting to feel distant with also) I would because if it means being free and no more arguments then I would definitely do it because in the words of Simon and Garfunkel "For a rock feels no pain. And an Island never cries" To me those words really speak to me because, what if you do feel know pain from being alone and actually become more happy? I don't know my mind is so messed up at the minute.
The third bad thing that happened to me was anxiety and mild depression. Now this has come up from the last two things I've talked about and it hurts. At first I wanted to hide it all away so no one would notice and just actout like I was happy when on the inside bit-by-bit something was dying. I didn't want to tell my paents about it because they would just say YOURE TIRED and end the argument which makes me more uset because no matter how you feel and try to show them,, they will never understand truly. EVER. Now maybe it is because I'm a teenage girl living in a world where you have to part of every single social media sight and its all about the butt and boobs like literally half the girls in my year on their instagram post pictures of themselves in skimpy dresses or their cleavage. I don't mesan to offend anyone by the way. But it's like really? Has our world come to a state where we have to judge ourselves everyday to see if we think we are good enough for it whilst checking out every social media website 24/7? maybe i'm wrong or maybe i'm right I'm not sure but what I do know is that I've partially gone off subject and should save this rant for a later blog post. But going back tomy anxiety and mild depression in the end I resorted to childline and van I just say they make you feel lots better about yourself than anyone will because catully it gave ,e the confidence to sit my mum down and talk to her seriously abput how i was feeling and in the end she got me medical help which i did on monday (yesterday) and the docotor gave megood advice and also tips on how to control my panic attacks which if you want i can share with you so (if you get them that is) we can get over these panic attacks. TOGETHER.
I wish their were great things that happened to me this yeaf but so little has which is ashame. I'm sorry if this post was too depressing for guys but i really had to get it out of my system like desparately had to.
Now maybe this is a massively long blog that no one has time to read but hopefully if you care enough to show me you've read it maybe you could possibly comment TOGETHER down below in the comments because i love it that people care about this totally weird blog but if you dont want to comment that's fine. I'm not in it for the popularity but for the people who care and feel the same way.
Well all i have to say now is
Till next post ma friends and trust me happier blogs are definitly coming soon.
Online Girl xx
Even if it is the 2nd I do not care because its a friday woohoo!.
Well yet another year gone by and yet I still feel like its 2006. I have to say 2014 hasn't been a great for me in fact I think I jinxed it for myself. I remember on Facebook saying
HAPPY NEW YEAR BET THIS ONE IS GOING TO BE A GREAT ONE!
Now I'm not one to believe in voodoo or good and bad luck but when it comes around I become a little sketchy about the whole thing.
Now I don't want to create a sob story here but seeming as this is what I'm writing about I guess I have to don't I.
I think the first part of bad luck happened in May (May 15th to be exact) when *try no to cry Online Girl* My dog Parker suddenly got blood poisoning and soon put to sleep. When that happened to me I wanted to scram and shout and kill the world. It killed me because well he was my best friend, the one I could talk to when I was down and hated the world because I don't think he could judge me but to me it felt like he understood me and was always there for me. God I miss him so much.
The second bad thing that happened to me was school and my friends. Ever since we all found each other and learnt that we all had the same interests we became a really close friendship group but now I feel that as a distance memory because all we do now is constantly argue I think we just got over our sixth argument and half the time I don't even know why we're even arguing its stupid. Do any of you guys have these in your friendship groups? I'd love to know in the comments below. Sometimes I say to myself Online Girl if it gets to the tenth argument and its still this bad then leave them. I always feel serious about it because even if it means losing my best friend in the world (Whom I'm starting to feel distant with also) I would because if it means being free and no more arguments then I would definitely do it because in the words of Simon and Garfunkel "For a rock feels no pain. And an Island never cries" To me those words really speak to me because, what if you do feel know pain from being alone and actually become more happy? I don't know my mind is so messed up at the minute.
The third bad thing that happened to me was anxiety and mild depression. Now this has come up from the last two things I've talked about and it hurts. At first I wanted to hide it all away so no one would notice and just actout like I was happy when on the inside bit-by-bit something was dying. I didn't want to tell my paents about it because they would just say YOURE TIRED and end the argument which makes me more uset because no matter how you feel and try to show them,, they will never understand truly. EVER. Now maybe it is because I'm a teenage girl living in a world where you have to part of every single social media sight and its all about the butt and boobs like literally half the girls in my year on their instagram post pictures of themselves in skimpy dresses or their cleavage. I don't mesan to offend anyone by the way. But it's like really? Has our world come to a state where we have to judge ourselves everyday to see if we think we are good enough for it whilst checking out every social media website 24/7? maybe i'm wrong or maybe i'm right I'm not sure but what I do know is that I've partially gone off subject and should save this rant for a later blog post. But going back tomy anxiety and mild depression in the end I resorted to childline and van I just say they make you feel lots better about yourself than anyone will because catully it gave ,e the confidence to sit my mum down and talk to her seriously abput how i was feeling and in the end she got me medical help which i did on monday (yesterday) and the docotor gave megood advice and also tips on how to control my panic attacks which if you want i can share with you so (if you get them that is) we can get over these panic attacks. TOGETHER.
I wish their were great things that happened to me this yeaf but so little has which is ashame. I'm sorry if this post was too depressing for guys but i really had to get it out of my system like desparately had to.
Now maybe this is a massively long blog that no one has time to read but hopefully if you care enough to show me you've read it maybe you could possibly comment TOGETHER down below in the comments because i love it that people care about this totally weird blog but if you dont want to comment that's fine. I'm not in it for the popularity but for the people who care and feel the same way.
Well all i have to say now is
Till next post ma friends and trust me happier blogs are definitly coming soon.
Online Girl xx
Monday, 29 December 2014
Hello Again
hey guys!
Now I know it isn't Friday but i'm so taken by this blog that I couldn't resist blogging yet again! I'm thinking of just posting whenever I can but I'm not sure because I don't want to seem pushy or anything.
Anyways how are things wherever you may be? I'm quite sad at the minute because in England its winter time and there is literally 0% snow in south England 0, zero, zilch, nada and I really love snow. Gosh just reading back through this I probably sound like a loon!
I have to say I cant wait for 2015 because i'm hoping I will be better than this because this ears been crap for me (i'll post a more detailed blog about that on new years day) But I don't want to jinx myself so that's all i'm saying about 2015 now.
So far I've been looking at loads of blogs and i love them all, well the ones i've seen anyway! two in perticular which i love is (sorrry but i don't care if i'm shouting out!!) is
not your average girl-my life! and also little old me
these two are my favourite by far and i hope any of you readers (if you exist!) read their blogs and I can't wait to recommend more!
Well that'sall from me really i can't think of much to say other than goodbye so...
till next post ma friends!
Now I know it isn't Friday but i'm so taken by this blog that I couldn't resist blogging yet again! I'm thinking of just posting whenever I can but I'm not sure because I don't want to seem pushy or anything.
Anyways how are things wherever you may be? I'm quite sad at the minute because in England its winter time and there is literally 0% snow in south England 0, zero, zilch, nada and I really love snow. Gosh just reading back through this I probably sound like a loon!
I have to say I cant wait for 2015 because i'm hoping I will be better than this because this ears been crap for me (i'll post a more detailed blog about that on new years day) But I don't want to jinx myself so that's all i'm saying about 2015 now.
So far I've been looking at loads of blogs and i love them all, well the ones i've seen anyway! two in perticular which i love is (sorrry but i don't care if i'm shouting out!!) is
not your average girl-my life! and also little old me
these two are my favourite by far and i hope any of you readers (if you exist!) read their blogs and I can't wait to recommend more!
Well that'sall from me really i can't think of much to say other than goodbye so...
till next post ma friends!
Online Girl xx
My new camera
Okay I am too excited to wait till Wednesday (which is the day I will start posting reviews) because I really want to show you guys my brand new camera!!
It is the canon PowerShot SX510HS Digital camera and I am just in love with it.
As you can see it's just bigger than the palm of my hand. Anyway I have to wait to get a memory card but when I do I will definitely post some photos with it but right now I'm just so happy I have this camera Iran just looking at it now makes me tingle inside because this camera also records too. So I am 100% excited to film with it and see the outcome!
I didn't get for Christmas but in the after sale because I have spent months saving up for this bad boy. At first when I got the package I didn't realise how lightweight it was and then when I opened it up I couldn't believe how small this camera actually was!
QOTD: Do you guys like filming and/or photography? Let me know in the comments below and I will get back to you ;)
Well that's me for today see you on Friday ma friends !!
Xx
Saturday, 27 December 2014
Hey...
hey there,
As you have guessed by the title and blog description this a blog documenting my life and the stuff that happens in it. I won't lie and say that it's all about rainbows and unicorns and happiness because it isn't. This will be happy and gritty because my life isn't is a nyan cat pooping out rainbows
I'm currently reading a book where this inspiration for a blog has come from and actually it's the first book I can actually relate to as person so expect a couple book reviews on the way.
I also like photography as well so keep photos in mind (but no selfies like I said in the description this blog is anonymous)
I don't thin there is much to say other than that this is a weekly blog and I'm going to post weekly on a Friday to I can share with you guys a recap of my week.
So this blog I guess will be containing:- my life
- reviews
So I hope you enjoy and maybe relate to the stuff I have to say and I guess for this is goodbye. Until next week ma friends
As you have guessed by the title and blog description this a blog documenting my life and the stuff that happens in it. I won't lie and say that it's all about rainbows and unicorns and happiness because it isn't. This will be happy and gritty because my life isn't is a nyan cat pooping out rainbows
I'm currently reading a book where this inspiration for a blog has come from and actually it's the first book I can actually relate to as person so expect a couple book reviews on the way.
I also like photography as well so keep photos in mind (but no selfies like I said in the description this blog is anonymous)
I don't thin there is much to say other than that this is a weekly blog and I'm going to post weekly on a Friday to I can share with you guys a recap of my week.
So this blog I guess will be containing:- my life
- reviews
So I hope you enjoy and maybe relate to the stuff I have to say and I guess for this is goodbye. Until next week ma friends
Online Girl
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